Go to a dinner with the new guy you’ve been seeing. You like him, but you’re still not sure where this is going. Except he just kissed you on the cheek when he thanked you again for his birthday gift. That’s good, right? When that other guy walks in, make eye contact and smile. Say sure when he asks if he and his date can sit across from you and yours. It’s not as though you two ever had anything serious. Just two dinner dates that were some of the most fun nights of 2011. Two dates that made you wonder if there could be more, but apparently not him. You’re enjoying your evening with the man at your side, but you can’t help noticing the one-sided conversation happening across the table. You don’t remember him being so obnoxious, and yet you have this feeling of deja vu. During one of his many bathroom breaks, his date says she’s not sure if this is a real date. If it isn’t that’s okay. If it is, that’s great! Either way she’s having a good time. You nod and smile your understanding. That sounds about right. You look at the man next to you. He listens when you speak. He refills your glass without your asking. He holds your hand when the band plays a song he likes. He lets you have the icing on his cake. Your former crush gets up to leave. You say good night. A woman sitting next to you was at those two dinners that also made her think there was more. She leans in and whispers.
“That must have been so awkward for you.”
“Not at all.”