Human resources called this morning to extend a job offer from my first choice hospital. It’s a full-time day position (7A-7P) on the telemetry floor: $22.23/hr and a $5000 sign on bonus plus an additional $2000 for the particular floor. The hospital will also pay part of my student loans as well as reimburse me for my boards and review course. I don’t know how that compares around the country, but suddenly I’m feeling rich. I should be clear of all debts and loans by this time next year. That’s one resolution covered.
The call was good news, but ,when I saw the caller ID, I panicked and didn’t answer. I was afraid of what they might have to say. My cell phone rang next, and I saw the same number running across the screen. Again, no answer. I waited to listen to the message left. It was the news I wanted to hear, and I was relieved, excited for my future, ready to call Gloria back, and frustrated with myself. Is this how it’s going to be?
I think everyone fears failure to a degree, but once you’ve failed miserably maybe that fear becomes a probability rather than a possibility in your mind. How many successes before the failure is outmatched?