“In the beginning, after all, were the words, and they came with a tune. That was how the world was made, how the void was divided, how the lands and the stars and the dreams and the little gods and the animals, how all of them came into the world.  They were sung.”

“All the way to the end. He had a smile that could make a girl squeeze her toes.”


“How do you take your coffee?

Dark as night, sweet as sin.”


“If there was any justice in the world, he would have moaned and sweated in his sleep, tortured by nightmares, the furies of his conscience lashing him with scorpions. Thus it pains me to admit that Grahame Coats slept like a well-fed milk-scented baby, and he dreamed of nothing at all.”

“Each person who ever was or is or will be has a song. It isn’t a song that anybody else wrote. It has its own melody, it has its own words. Very few people get to sing their own song. Most of us fear that we cannot do it justice with out voices, or that our words are too foolish or too honest, or too odd. So people live their songs instead.”

“And that is, more or less, everything you need to know about Daisy. The rest is details.”

“He was uniformly irritable and short-tempered. On a good day he made it as far as tetchy.”

“There was reality, and there was reality, and some things were more real than others.”

“He said it aloud; it’s easier to lie to yourself when you say things out loud.”

“Fat Charlie tried to remember what people did in prison to pass the time, but all he could come up with was keeping secret diaries and hiding things in their bottoms. He had nothing to write on, and felt that a definite measure of how well one was getting on in life was not having to hide things in one’s bottom.”

“It’s easier to say true things in the dark.”

“Don’t say ‘sorry’ like that neither, like a dog that get tell off for messin’ on the kitchen floor. Hold your head up. Look the world in the eye.”

“It is a small world. You do not have to live in it particularly long to learn that for yourself. There is a theory that, in the whole world, there are only five hundred real people (the cast, as it all were; all the rest of the people in the world, the theory suggests, are extras) and what is more, they all know each other. And it’s true, or true as far as it goes. In reality the world is made of thousands upon thousands of groups of about five hundred people, all of whom will spend their lives bumping into each other, trying to avoid each other, and discovering each other in the same unlikely teashop in Vancouver. There is an unavoidability to this process. It’s not even coincidence. It’s just the way the world works, with no regard for individuals or for propriety.”

“People respond to the stories. They tell them themselves. The stories spread, and as people tell them, the stories change the tellers. Because now the folk who never had any thought in their head but how to run from lions and keep far enough away from rivers that the crocodiles don’t get an easy meal, now they’re starting to dream about a whole new place to live. The world may be the same, but the wallpaper’s changed.  Yes? People still have the same story, the one where they get born and they do stuff and they die, but now the story means something different to what it meant before.”

“Stories are webs, interconnected strand to strand, and you follow each story to the center, because the center is the end. Each person is a strand of story.”

“The thing they don’t tell you about coffins in the literature, because frankly it’s not much of a selling point to the people who are buying them, is just how comfortable they are.”

“Charlie has a son. His name is Marcus: he is four and a half and possesses that deep gravity and seriousness that only small children and mountain gorillas have ever been able to master.”

Rainy nights  Planning for a wedding and an Alaskan honeymoon   Playing with my nieces and nephew  Helping study for 8th grade Spanish  Getting a bathroom built at the lake’s campsite  Listening to old CDs   Pretty, hilly, winding drives to the lake  Saving new recipes to try out this month Making new friends at work   Drying and freezing seeds for next year’s garden  Summer lovin’                         

“I remembered that, and remembering that, I remembered everything.”

“I was sad that nobody had come to my party, but happy that I had a Batman figure, and there was a birthday present waiting to be read, a boxed set of the Narnia books, which I took upstairs.  I lay on the bed and lost myself in the stories.  I like that. Books were safer than other people anyway.”

“I do not remember ever asking any of the other children in my class at school why they had not come to my party. I did not need to ask them. They were not my friends, after all.  They were just the people I went to school with.  I made friends slowly, when I made them.”

“I was not happy as a child, although from time to time I was content. I lived in books more than I lived anywhere else.”

“I’m going to tell you something important. Grown-ups don’t look like grown-ups on the inside either. Outside, they’re big and thoughtless and they always know what they’re doing. Inside, they look just like they always have. Like they did when they were your age. The truth is, there aren’t any grown-ups. Not one, in the whole wide word.”

“I do not miss childhood, but I miss the way I took pleasure in small things, even as greater things crumbled.”



I got my little lady up to the bedside commode.

While changing her linen, I noticed her rocking her shoulders back and forth.  She had a music channel on.

“Are you dancing?” I asked her. She just smiled with a mischievous grin.

I turned up the TV, and we danced together.

“..but that’s one of those questions I’ve learned not to ask, because I’ll just get that condescending look all parents reserve for non-parents, to remind you that you’re not yet a complete person”

“Alice helps Linda, because Alice is an in-law and technically not one of the bereaved. Barry doesn’t help, because Barry is technically an asshole.”


“He called Barry an ass.

‘I’m sorry,’ Phillip says, ‘It’s been a while. It’s entirely possible, though highly unlikely, that Barry is no longer an ass.”


“There’s nothing sweeter than a two-year-old speaking, with his high-pitched sincerity and his immigrant English.”


“Later on, Jen would swear that was the moment she knew she was going to marry me. That’s the problem with college kids. I blame Hollywood for skewing their perspective. Life is just a big romantic comedy to them, and if you meet cute, happily-ever-after is a foregone conclusion.”

“When does it all happen? In increments, so you can’t watch out for it, you can’t fix it. One day you just wake up and discover that you got old while you were sleeping.”

“I may not be old, but I’m too old to have this much nothing.”

“It would be a terrible mistake to go through life thinking that people are the sum total of what you see.”


“I have loved her for so long. Our past trails behind us like a comet’s tail, the future stretched out before us like the universe. Things happen. People get lost and love breaks. I want to forgive her, and I think I can, but it’s not like issuing a certificate. I’ll have to keep forgiving her until it takes, and knowing me and knowing her, that’s not always going to come easy.”

“Our parents can continue to screw us up even after they die, and in this way, they’re never really gone.”

“Wendy taught me to curse, matched my clothing, brushed my hair before school, and let me sleep in bed with her when bad dreams woke me up. She fell in love often, and with great fanfare, throwing herself into each romance with the focus of an Olympic athlete. Now she’s a mother and a wife, who tries to stop her boys from learning curse words, and calls romantic love useless.  Sometimes it’s heartbreaking to see your siblings as the people they’ve become. Maybe that’s why we all stay away from each other as a matter of course.”

♥  Brother and his family moving back close  Watching a late showing of The Great Gatsby with my favorite 16-year-old Date night Buying the acre next to our first   Taking out my new kayak That big hug after he found his birthday gift Being taught by my favorite 13-year-old how to ride his new dirt bike My watermelon crop ♥  Jewelry shopping  Morning cuddles Late night chats with my sister Taco Bell meal deal #4

I’ve accepted a position in the main OR.

I’ve spent three days there getting some unofficial orientation.  Our hospital recently converted to a new payroll system that has left new hires and transfers frozen for the moment.  My current manager is also dragging his feet in giving the OR a transfer date.  The OR manager was going to leave it up to him, but now he’ll let him know that he expects the transfer two pay periods after I accepted the offer from HR on July 3rd.

I love it there so much already.  I had no idea it was so good.


♥  Buying our first piece of land The silver in his “vacation beard.” Watching my little garden for new signs of growth. This week I see watermelon, bell pepper, banana peppers, strawberries, and cherry tomatoes. New job    Dreaming of my lake house Getting ready to take her to see John Mayer Planning their birthday weekend Spending time with his family ♥  My new kayak   Hibiscus blooms People missing me while I was away from work Planning future trips with him  Making friends Summertime                         

⌂  The outpatient, cushy hour surgery job didn’t work out, but I interviewed and  accepted a position with the main OR.  I’m ready for the change.  I’m also very ready for the year-long orientation.  That means a year of no overtime or taking call on nights or weekends!  (My little side job will make up for any losses.)  I was told I could do four 10-hour shifts a week, which is what I was looking to do with the other position.

⌂   I visited Arizona for the first time. Highlights of the trip were seeing the Grand Canyon, hiking down into the rim, renting an ATV in Sedona and taking on the trails, the amazing view in Sedona, climbing Cameback Mountain, and seeing Slide Rock and sliding down the natural water slide.  This trip also marked my first purchase of  Camelbak and hiking boots.

⌂ My boyfriend and I bought a little land up by the lake.  Lots of plans that include adding to our acre before beginning to build.

⌂  I spent my first 4th of July at the lake.  I had no idea what I was missing.

⌂  I’ve been meeting with different local running groups and making new friends.  I plan to knock out my first 10K this year.

“Preston and Cordelia when they later arrived were both blonds, cut from the Turnbow cloth, but the first one that came in its red pelt of fur was a mean wild thing like her. Roping a pair of dumbstruck teenagers into a shotgun wedding an then taking off with a laugh, leaving them stranded. Leaving them trying five years for another baby, just to fill a hole nobody meant to dig in the first place.”

“A life measured in half dollars and clipped coupons and culled hopes flattened between uninsulated walls.”

“And the idea of being named for an artist. A person could be reborn on the strength of that.”

“Her every possession was either unbreakable, or broken.”

“There had to be armies of factory workers making this slapdash stuff, underpaid people cranking out things for underpaid people to buy and use up, living their lives mostly to cancel each other out. A worldwide entrapment of bottom feeders.”

“If people played their channels right, they could be spared from disagreement for the length of their natural lives. Finally she got it. The need for so many channels.”

“It was hard to feel the remotest sympathy for any of the different fools she had been.  As opposed to the fool she was probably being now. People hang on for dear life to that one, she thought: the fool they are right now.”

“There is no life raft; you’re just freaking swimming all the time.”

“Things look impossible when you’ve not done them.”

April 2014
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My Happiness Project

1. Set a bedtime.
2. Make my bed every morning.
3. Always be reading something.
4. Move more.
5. Toss and organize.
6. Give proofs of love.
7. Leave the past.
8. Fight right.
9. Don't expect praise or appreciation.
10. Kiss more, hug more, touch more.
11. Aim higher.
12. Find some fun.
13. Ask for help.
14. Smile.
15. Realize it's possible.
16. Don't compare;be inspired.
17. Focus on what I have.
18. Beware of drift.
19. Take a chance.
20. Listen.
21. Be mindful.
22. Cultivate gratitude.
23. Spend out.
24. Do good, feel good.
25. Show up.
26. Have the courage to be imperfect.
27. Find joy in the ordinary.
28. Work smart.
29. Enjoy now.
30. Talk to strangers.
31. Go outside.
32. Start where I am.
33. Show up on time.
34. See art everyday.
35. Love with abandon.
36. Be colorful.
37. Dress the part.
38. Revel in accomplishments.
39. Learn something new.
40. Fear less.
41. Take pictures.
42. Speak with integrity.
43. Don't be critical about small things.
44. Manage my pain.
45. Surround myself with creative people.
46. Practice, practice, practice.
47. Don't force it.
48. Deal with something once.
49. Trust my instincts.
50. Avoid gossip.
51. Choose to see the best in people.
52. Take time to be silly.
53. Throw my own party.
54. Be a mentor.
55. Lean into my fears.
56. Find the others.
57. Do the unexpected.
58. Don't break the chain.
59. Do things others aren't.
60. Slow down.
61. Be cool with not being cool.
62. Be kinder than necessary and more generous than reasonable.
63. Pretend I'm good at it.
64. Keep in touch.
65. Row my own canoe.
66. Do what only you can do.
67. If it doesn't work out, find something that does.
68. Dream bigger.
69. Notice what's right.
70. Stop talking. Start doing.
71. When in doubt, choose laughter.
72. Don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good.
73. Respect everyone.
74. Be early.
75. Delete the unnecessary.

Three Simple Rules

1. If you do not GO after what you want, you will never have it.
2. If you do not ASK, the answer will always be no.
3. If you do not MOVE forward, you will always be in the same place.

Decisions, decisions…

Ten years from now, what will I wish I had done?

All I Need

1. Someone to love.
2. Something to do.
3. Something to hope for.

Cannonball Read 2013


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